At my lowest but highest!

I see now! I know who Jesus is! I no longer need anyone but Him!❤️ I told Him last night I love my life but am no longer scared of being there. So instead of being scared today of my pain I felt heard by God and it no longer matters who else hears our cries! He’s the only one who can answer them!❤️

One week until….

Not that I follow Joe Biden because really is it about him? Or just people hating Trump so bad that they’re willing to vote for Biden even if it costs us our country? Anyways I watch both sides because I’m not consumed with hate therefore I’m confident in the truth and not shaken by the lies. However, I’ve always wondered why Joe? Why? He is tired, incapable, full of nonsense, empty, uncaring, selfish, angry, prideful and has just come completely undone!

Then I get something from his “site” making all these promises he could have fulfilled in the last 47 years so all the sudden I see what I’ve been praying to understand (so I had to post it of course🙄😂) and it boils down to this:

“I’ve often wondered why you are running Joe and now I see it’s to protect your family! Problem is we’re all going to go to hell if you win! Guess who you’re going to see soon? Satan! And who will you save? No one!”

Do I usually waste time on BS? NO! But I’m telling you all I care about is this nation will either temporarily be under distress or forever be under distress depending on who you vote for! Please vote out of love not hatred!❤️

Why have I been up all night? I’m praying! We have 1 week! Am I fearful Hell to the No! Am I excited? Yes! Because God’s will will be done!

I see.

Wow every prayer I’ve had has been answered… but one… how do you respond when you know you’ve been in the wrong?😬

I’ve always done my best but with that came expectations… that carried disappointment…and that carried feeling like a victim… and with that I felt the need to victimize… but the 2 men who know me and get me (my husband and son)? Well that stopped me in my tracks!😢

Well then I realized I put them thru a lot and was willing to compensate… put up with a lot… and go thru a lot…so I became a martyr… did it make me feel better? NO!

So then I became me… and while every day I become stronger so do my demons… and 2020 has unleashed a force!😱🤯

Now I’m receiving what I’ve been? Why?😢 When I get it finally?😳 Because we’re meant to be like Jesus and until we ARE we’re never gonna be good with ourselves!♥️

A fountain of cascading light – that where I was today!👍🤗🥳🥰🤩

Well since I seem to have followers I should make it worth following me if I’m suppose to do as Jesus does… and since this day was spectacular what better place to share…❤️

So today I started putting to practice everything I’ve been learning… I started the day plugging into God… I added reading some things on this site and found plugging into like minded people is also important ..❤️ I put on the armor of God and felt right!😁🤗

This lady came in with 4:20 on her shirt… I told her I liked it… I felt completely free of judgement because I have experienced the benefits of it! She felt it and it caused her to open up to me… she expressed how she’s felt judged all her life… I told her that we are the one’s that judge ourselves and once we let go of that other people’s judgements don’t matter. we can’t cash checks for dispensaries so I apologized for not being able to help her and she said she was meant to have come in and was so thankful. What stunned me is how I felt I was right there with her dancing in a fountain of cascading light… it was refreshing.🥳 It energized me enough to wanna stay there.

So another lady comes and I’m learning to speak with my heart vs my head… so there is no filter and because I meet a person where they are at there is no fear…I told her that she needs to know that she’s right where she’s meant to be… that she hates it but if she embraces it she will bring healing to her whole family. She says with tears flowing that she has goosebumps all over because she knew it was God. I had them too and they are my favorite thing because I know God’s in the room.🥳 She expressed how her dad and mom are living with her and how difficult he is… I told her it’s his own insecurities and because he bullies her she let’s him snuff out her light… how my dad did the same thing but once I stopped allowing it to have an effect on me and responded differently he was able to see my heart just like I was able to see his and healing came. ❤️ She expresses how her son is becoming a bully because of how mean her dad is to him and how he’s over weight and teased at school. I told her she needs to teach him vs shield him… I learnt I had two choices in life when facing this…to change or accept… if I didn’t want to change I needed to stand confident in it. She expressed how her mom works herself to death… I told her it’s when we give into the pressure we lose ourselves… it’s when we do our best and leave the rest that God shows up and it all becomes ok because people see and know. She looks at me and tells me that I’m suppose to be here… I have heard that so often but I saw today why… because I’ve finally learned how to get out of the way and let God do what He needs and I must say it’s absolutely delightful!🥳 You know how many times I thought the conversation should go a different direction? But I just went were God leaded me and in the end it all made sense!❤️ I love Him!❤️

What was nice and didn’t block anything was there was no politics involved and it was refreshing because we were able to focus on who we need to be at this time… but I do wanna say I have a feeling this is how it will end… it will all make sense… and people have had time to prepare…they have seen a need to change and they will be ready to see what will be hard to see… and they will be prepared to deal with it correctly because God is at work that’s why the forces are freaking out… all will be well if we’re well with our souls!❤️

Welp things are changing!🤗

It seems like those who know who they are are becoming more and more confident in their voice and unwilling to back down due to self doubt that is created when those who think differently start to get scared!

I recently got a job after taking some time off to get rid of hurt mentally and physically since I see hurt people hurt people! I decided I’m much better with myself when bringing healing vs hurt!

I encounter people from all walks of life! I think one of the side effects of casting off fear is seeing people as individuals and appreciating who they are… and people crave this in this world! I personally think that’s what has made Trump successful! He appreciates good people! And good people are in a place where they are just done feeling bad!

I personally have spent 48 yrs trying to understand people! And it drives me crazy when I always find I complicate things! But it is as simple as this! Good people know how to love and we should be standing a lot more strongly in that! Bad people don’t know how to love and they should be trusting US over themselves!

I had some bikers come in the other night… they were all fancy so I asked what gang they were with… they say Sons of Darkness… 😳🥴 So I’m asking God how in the hell I’m suppose to respond… and all the sudden I just say how I feel…😳 I say “I’ve tried dark! I don’t like it! I figured out I only like the light! So I’d call myself Daughter of the Light! Therefore we may clash but it’s alright! We can handle it!” They kind of were taken back… stumbling a bit over words then said “it’s spelled Suns… and they are about bringing light in the midst of darkness!” 🤗 I share that story because usually I don’t do that especially since I rather not clash with the dark!🥴 But it felt good! And I think it’s because we are gonna face more and more dark as things come more and more to the light! It’s just what happens! I saw that too btw when asking God why people reject good things… they feel undeserving and feel it might require more from them (2 things I’ve had to overcome myself for sure!)! Anyways I think those living in the light need to start remaining strong in that place!

So I had PTSD while writing this from posting long ass posts on fb and being given a hard time… but then I kept remembering the posts I’ve read here and it for sure seems appreciated here!😂🤗❤️